Reckless Love

“How sweet to be outdone, overcome, and overwhelmed by the astonishing grace of the Lord our God.” – Charles Spurgeon

Hello Dear Friend,

Outdone, overcome, and overwhelmed would all be pretty good words to describe what these past few months have looked and felt like for me. Since my last letter, back in April, ‘A Wicked Masquerade’, God has been moving in my heart and life in a way that can only be described as reckless.

When God fights for you, He really fights for you. And what most of us tend to forget is that He never stops fighting for us. What’s even less recognized is all the fighting He’s doing behind the scenes in a Supernatural war taking place in our lives that we aren’t even aware is happening most the time.  

Reckless love is the driving force that’s had God working as a Demon hunter in the Supernatural battle going on in my life. This battle has been taking place for years, even decades. But in Spring I had a huge breakthrough and since then He’s been tearing down and exposing many of strongholds that have been like linked chains over my life. In His goodness, He’s also been uncovering and revealing so much to me in such a short amount of time that I’ve found myself completely consumed by His greatness and overcome by the washing of His grace. 

I recently heard a quote by Pastor Steven Furtick that said, “The presence of God is not the place that you go to bypass your emotions. The presence of God is the place you go to process them.” 

Well, God has been moving so rapidly in my life lately that I’ve been doing a lot of soul searching and processing in the presence of my Lord. One thing I know with absolute certainty is that the evidence of God’s movement in this season has revealed that my life is currently one big, beautiful mess but I love how God has shown up and shown off ever since I’ve made myself get out of His way.  

God has been teaching me a lot by showing me the breakdown of how multiple spiritual strongholds have all been intertwined and working together to create a toxic vine and that somehow, somewhere in my story those strongholds successfully found a way to wrap this vine around me, bind me, and keep me captive. But now, through His reckless love I’m being stripped and cleansed from all that bondage. 

Talk about your spiritual over hall! Like a house going through major demo work before the remodel, I feel like that’s where God and I are currently at in my life. Like a contractor, He’s come in and examined everything there is to see and He’s comparing it to the blueprint of what my life should look like – the way that He originally envisioned. In this season of my life, I feel like I’m being beautifully broken as God is in the middle of a complete demolition project. It’s been a season of discovery and heartache. It’s been messy, it’s been exhausting, and at times it’s been painful. There’s been tears, there’s been anger and frustration. But if I had to sum up the entire process into one word, this is the one I would pick...amazing. The entire process has also been amazing. It’s been rewarding, fulfilling, and eye-opening. Because I know He’s moving in my heart and in my life, finding every strong hold that’s been looming over me and cleaning up and clearing out house so that He can begin to renovate, restore, and make everything new and holy. After all, you can’t have the rebuild before the teardown. 

One thing I’ve learned as I’ve been processing everything is that I know that my happiness matters to God. I know, He didn’t create me with the intension of me living a life in bondage and defeat. He created me to be free and forgiven and to live in the joy that can only be found in His Son, Jesus. 

Many times, in this season, I can’t help but catch myself overcome with tears of joy and gratitude for what God is doing and how He is moving in my life. It’s been rewarding, fulfilling, and eye-opening. I know my life is filled with evidence of the reckless love that God has for His children. To be loved, sought after, fought for, bought for and renewed is like being washed in the overwhelming overflow of God’s greatness. 

With love,

a Poetic Soul